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01.18.08. friday 630pm
The Outpost Gallery

will you come and take my paradise?

just a boring afternoon at the office.
missing my zaiid, wanting to go to sleep. after a year and 7 months, i write:

can you see through your broken mirror
the parts missing, coming, taking
away from the thoughts begging you to
whisper it's name, again you look through them

last night the moon shut its eyes
like the way you shut yours when you dream
far away beyond your trunk of memories
of seas and waves that might bring us back

my intention of taking you again
to eat you and sleep with you does not count
at all. nor can the wind hear my words
across the melody of my lips and tongue.

you do not own me nor do i owe you.
we live on the same forest and you call it
your home even with snakes at sight
i am part of your universe.

i will take you again and sing songs with you
if you will take me and dance above
that purple-doubt flower that's withering.
will you come and take my paradise?


- g o v i n d a 12.10.07
found the perfect image: The Releasing of Mimi's Embers by Amy Sol :)

thank you SAMMYDEW!

we got a surprise package all the way from Canada! wala jud ni nako gi expect sammydew!!! thanks kaayo!

i got a NEIL GAIMAN cd - of course naa jud na si tori amos! ga kirig2x jud koooo!
dwynn got a WWE - collector's item! - "tawag kong sam!", haha abi'g naa's cebu!
and.. zaiid got two ANNE GEDDES books!!! - nya kinsa man ang nikirig? ang inahan! wahahhaha!!! wala nako gi sagol sa books ni zaiid kay kbaw ko unsay mahitabo... heheh..

thank you thank you sam. :) not just for the gifts, but most importantly by the mere thought of making us extra happy... we miss you and love you back!!!

World's Tallest Building in the Making

Why does man want to achieve the grandest, ultimately the tallest?

Just a thought seeing it everyday from work, going home.

The World's Tallest Building.

riding the wave of the pink and the blue.

yeayhoooo! im getting the job i want (at least in terms of vibe and location and smell and scope of work). big big family of pink and blue, im joining the Signature Group, under Mile High Media (LLC).

can't wait to get started on sunday!

riding the wave of the pink and the blue

yeayhoooo! I'm getting the job I want (at least in terms of vibe and location and smell and scope of work). Big big family of pink and blue, I'm joining the Signature Group, under Mile High Media (LLC).

Can't wait to get started on sunday!

high on OGILVY yeah!

10:00 am, sheikh zayed road. al attar building. shoot, we got off from the wrong building. "after two buildings, that's it" feet swelling. I. DON'T. WEAR. HEELS. face sweating.

24th floor. kayasa. nindotaaaaa!!! and there's the big name. "hulata lang ko sa silong tambol." "cge hon. shucks"

"hi. good morning. im here for a job interview..." "please take a seat."

"govinda? hi. im robin. please come in. this is the creative team"

the place is like the real thing. papers everywhere, toys, vandals on walls, weird looking people... it smelled like..THE ad agency.

and robin was soooo cool. but a dad kinda cool. he was the creative director. and a guy came in. guy, the art head. and we just talked about my site, and my works, and everything else just melted into a great big creative paradise... i can't believe im sitting right next to these guys, talking about tori amos, and laughing about "it's just photoshop" (referring to tori amos and me pic). i think they like me. heheh. "are you seeing others?" like.. uh.. oh they meant other agencies. i said they are my first :)

BUT. they aren't hiring. so. they'd call me if something comes up :) ok ra dili madawat; hearing those words coming from the big guys is more than enough :)

im just soooo high i can't even complain about my swollen little foot-pinkie. pag abot namo sa flat, ga tiniil jud ko gikan sa pultahan padung elevator hantud naabot sa among door, where my little Taputingking greet us with his smile. haaaaaaay samot ka high ang govinda...

my new site's now up!

Finally nahuman na gyud nako! Dreamjob-hunting here we gooooooo! whohoooo! *crossingfingsers for that dreamjob!

www.g0vinda.com

now that she's here...

im finally getting enough of these: sleep, rest, website revamp, meals. the flat-home is now rightfully "in place" and "on time". it's like time existed again.

zaiid laughs like the way she makes him. they really did miss each other's company. after all, she's his yaya!

i need to act fast on my website revamp and start the dreamjob-hunting! whoooopieeeee!

dwynn's getting his gym life back - - ang kalipay nga nabyaan.

now that she's here, things will definitely roll!

COMBINATIONS: eisley's new music!

it's like a combination of Carnivale (tv series) and everything basic. a combination of random thoughts and hopeful tomorrows. a combination of make-believe and materialism. our favorite baby-band (innocent in that sense) has come to greet us a new place, right where my zaiid turns one year old, a new eisley music comes.

zaiid and i will be making new dance steps for the new harmonies and lyrics heheh! :)

the science of sleep

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for those of us who dream vividly :)
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Synopsis

The Science of Sleep," a playful romantic fantasy set inside the topsy-turvy brain of Stephane Miroux (Gael Garcia Bernal) an eccentric young man whose dreams constantly invade his waking life.

While slumbering, he is the charismatic host of "Stephane TV," expounding on "The Science of Sleep" in front of cardboard cameras. In "real life," he has a boring job at a Parisian calendar publisher and pines for Stephanie (Charlotte Gainsbourg), the girl in the apartment across the hall. While Stephanie is initially charmed by Stephane, she is confused by his childishness and shaky connection to reality. Stephanes co-worker, Guy (Alain Chabat) a vulgar but practical man, offers advice on the opposite sex, but Stephane is too far in the clouds to listen. Unable to find the secret to Stephanies heart while awake, Stephane searches for the answer in his dreams.

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a friendly tip: don't tell your dream people/characters that they're just in your dream and that they are not real. believe me, magkagubot jud :)

THEN AND NOW: the puddings equation

wala ra diay na usab.
na-pun-an lang.

kung na pun-an, mausab ba?
naay napu-an nga dili mausab?

naa...kami. :)

it's just that you can't do anything perfectly.

i was frustrated again. on how we are becoming really uncomfortable with the dancing. but i need to make him sleep and dream. i was frustrated and tired. but i had enough love. i made him sleep and dream.

my frustration (or Basquiat-inspired erik who came up to me) led me to remember her again and be moved by her thoughts -- on raising up children.

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Agnes Martin: It's just that you can't do anything perfectly. Anything. You can't bring up children perfectly.

Joan Simon: Your grandfather, with whom you lived for a time as a youngster, sounds like an exception.

AM: He tried to be a good man. He believed in not interfering with children. He didn't talk to them. But you knew that he liked you. He never criticized or made suggestions. You led a free life.

JS: Did he lead by his example? By what he did in his life?

AM: No. As a matter of fact, my grandfather believed that God looked after children. And that it was none of his business. Anyway, it made for a good life, I can tell you. Freedom.

JS: Freedom, as a kid, to do what?

AM: Freedom from criticism, from suggestions. That really made for freedom. I mean he didn't even correct little children. He believed in children expressing their own potential.

JS: Was your mother like your grandfather?

AM: Yes, my mother followed his example. Anyone looking on would have thought she was indifferent. But she really believed in noninterference.

JS: She also supported the family.

AM: She redid houses and sold them. She brought up four children, although she was small.

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that line hit me: "although she was small". and now, i'll be fine. :)

usa na ka bulan.

my life used to be, even as a wife, was pretty much lazy. i just sleep and dream for as long as i want and nobody cared. i eat whatever there is on the table, or occasionally, i bug my whale to bring me what im craving. i wore clothes, spoil them, and when i want to wear them again, they're good as brand new. as a mother, i take care of my zaiid's bathtime, storytime and yumyum time. that's it. and we played like crazy. i wanted things and i get them. i was a brat-wife-mother.

in a snap, the force of reality pushes me like the way you push that cleaning brush into the tiny milk bottle hole. well, that kind of annoying push, or some other kind is how i became my potential. i can't make excuses, i can't call whoever so i could take seconds just to pee. i can't just sleep or eat or take a bath whenever i want. there is a little man who so needs me like every after 5mins! and he wants to walk, run, go and check up the washing machine, go eat things, throw things, whine, cry, all he wishes. and i need to breathe because if i don't, i die. he loved his dvds. that's when i can prepare his food and chat. i mastered multitasking and expanded my creativity.

im bragging about my life. how i have all the time in the world with my zaiid. being in his big moments like walking for the first time. im bragging about my whale who made so much out of his love to complete our home. :) im bragging about how i take care of my boys. :)

things i gained:
1. kabaw nako mo luto (lami baya way burit)
2. kabaw nako mamlansa
3. muscles sa bukton (siguro. sa kinugos sa akong anak)
4. my voice improved (pakanta pirmi zaiid gud)
5. dry skin, lips, eyes, nose, elbows. yuck.
6. samad-samad sa kamot (nadaut sa hugas)
7. migo mi sa oras
8. patience (stretchable)
9. downloading
10. multitasking
11. new talent: kaon wala's oras
12. tinud-anay nga balay-balay.

and oh, im also bragging about my gloves that fit so well! sa pinas, wala juy inani ka gamya! :)

dula-dula. balay-balay.

ignoring zaiid's wake up call: poking our eyes. changing diapers. poo mess. baby einstein. old mcdonald had a farm. bathtime, a big mess. taputingkoy taputingkoy. rubberducky. running out of time. not so early morning stroll. yum yum! trying to take a bath. dagan-dagan. read book na! garbage time ni papa. hugas bibiron si mama. sterilize bibiron. butang tubig bibiron. hurot napud gatas. hurot napud diaper. laba. hayhay. sarah mclachlan. eisley. coldplay. sleepy zaiid. sayaw. pikpik. gutom nako. lunch at 3pm. dinner at 9pm. sleep na bibol. multiply check. edit pics. upload pics. hulat dwynn. tan-aw HEROES. family guy. chat. hulat dwynn. dli na mada, duka na gyud. sleep beside zaiid. dwynn namukaw, abot na. kaon. hugas bibiron. sterilize. laba. tulog...

MR. MARCH GOT US.

it was a joke. a teaser of some sort. i can laugh now. Mr. March got us. dwynn's finally coming home on the 20th. but i won't try to count the days. it's bad luck or something. it's not a good habit.

i made a funny portrait of zaiid and i. to show mr. march we didn't get his joke.

MR. MARCH IS A FAKE.

almost dancing on a glaring white cloud, i could see me. almost at the peek of my lashes, although they're not curvy-long to an envy and wouldn't mind you saying they're not that pretty, i watch my little self shine as i wait for him. almost and almost i can smell him coming up with the brightest sun he could put up. he would bring so much tan and salt. Mr. March would bring me my bestfriend home.

but he is a fake. the big MR. MARCH IS A FAKE. he laughs at our hopes, he laughs at my daydreams, he laughs at my waiting.

and on my tiny head, i would want us to go to a court. i would want him trapped and swarmed with the reddest ants on this planet.

so long mister march. i no longer wait for your coming.

welcome to the club, Tingbats!

the kangol kiddo is now a mommy!!!

welcome to planet earth, RHAYA!!! sus, tinbats had no idea how crazy-happy i was when kris texted me that afternoon! sus naka hilak jud ko ug nanindog jud ako balhibo. weird man ang feeling diay uy. kung ikaw na ang mag hulat nga ga labor na imong miga :O haaaaaay tinbats, motherhood na kaayo atong kiat aning kalakiha heheh..

puhon, basin dli na kaayo ta magkitaay ana for a year or so. pero cge lang, we have our web lives to get by. you'll do great with rhaya, and i'll do great with my zaiid :)

post daun ug rhaya pics ha! or better yet, create a rhaya multiply account! :)

whohoooooooooooo!
welcome to the club tingbats!


p.s. too bad, i couldn't visit the nursery that time.

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01.12.07 friday 630PM
TURTLE'S NEST GAMAY'NG GALLERY

happy new year!

SILI things:

1. im still small.
2. dwynn loving dubai.
3. zaiid loves to jump none-stop, but hates to crawl.
4. i still don't know how to cook.
5. i don't have a new year's resolution.
6. ok. maybe i should learn how to cook.
7. hoping for dubai we all go.
8. i still believe in faeries.
9. eisley becomes redundant.
10. i don't know where tori is.
11. dwynn still loves rammstein.
12. zaiid's hair.
13. zaiid's super vitamins.
14. zaiid likes "10 little bibol boys"
15. zaiid sleeps with music on
16. no permanent yaya.
17. not driving our car.
18. flats costing 65k dirhams a year.
19. zaiid looooooooves the camera.
20. still missing dwynn.