I can't go to school. (Not yet.)

After being so high and excited about everything - from finding a school that teaches dressmaking for free, getting the requirements ready, inviting my best friend to join me - I have to postpone the big plan. I still have to give a halt to my dreamy sewing projects. Simply put: I can't focus on my sewing act yet. Time won't let me. At least not in a proper school.

No worries, I'm a fast learner. I'm sure I can catch up 3 years from now. In the meantime, Plan B might just work. That is, I won't go to school which requires half a day of my time everyday but instead, will take my saturday mornings and invite my Manang to come and teach me while the babies are with their grandparents in Opon. Sounds like a plan.

Being a mother is first and foremost being a mother. Not being a creative or a crafter, or being a freelancer, or even being a wife. Being a mother is being a mother - everything else comes in second even if you are itching to becoming... more of being yourself.

But having said that, I realize being who I am to my boys is the greatest accomplishment of being ME has achieved. What can I say, my babies come first.