I can't go to school. (Not yet.)

After being so high and excited about everything - from finding a school that teaches dressmaking for free, getting the requirements ready, inviting my best friend to join me - I have to postpone the big plan. I still have to give a halt to my dreamy sewing projects. Simply put: I can't focus on my sewing act yet. Time won't let me. At least not in a proper school.

No worries, I'm a fast learner. I'm sure I can catch up 3 years from now. In the meantime, Plan B might just work. That is, I won't go to school which requires half a day of my time everyday but instead, will take my saturday mornings and invite my Manang to come and teach me while the babies are with their grandparents in Opon. Sounds like a plan.

Being a mother is first and foremost being a mother. Not being a creative or a crafter, or being a freelancer, or even being a wife. Being a mother is being a mother - everything else comes in second even if you are itching to becoming... more of being yourself.

But having said that, I realize being who I am to my boys is the greatest accomplishment of being ME has achieved. What can I say, my babies come first.

happy EARTH day!

I couldn't find time to make a new one, 

so here's my old (2005) litte gift to you Mother. 

So today I'm shouting: 

All is full of Love!

I want to go to school!

I can't spill all the details yet but the big news is I might get my sewing act up! Hoping the school will give me the chance to join them even if I'm a week late. I'm all geared up and firing with guts and eagerness.

ordinary miracle

With my 2.9yo and 7mo babies under the PhotoBooth. Just having an ordinary miracle everyday. Missing Papa Goy but really I just can't complain.

We hope to fly back to Dubai by July. We are praying hard that everything will flow according to our plan, with God's grace at hand. We hope to get our yaya with us too so I'll get the best help that I can while I stay-at-home. It's going to be a new adventure and it's going to be tough. But that won't matter because we are a family.

How cool

How cool is a wifi connection at home and blogging with your iPod Touch! :)

you and me

While you are thinking you could be somebody new,
I thought about me being the old me.
If that is a good case, then the stars might shine nonetheless.
But if you can't stay, the moon shall shine anyway.

Every once in a while a small butterfly smiles to us
Saying we're a pair that can never be undone.
Whatever that means to that little creature,
I think it sounded good to the universe.

Look how silly we can be, like loving is a yoga.
I never thought I'd be as old as a turtle,
but still it is the case for my eyes have seen so much.
Yet you remain ageless, and timeless like you can never die.

You are my life like when I think of my life as a doodle.
I can draw things and patterns and the world can guess.
Still I hold that drawing in my heart, owning it because it is of me.
Yet you are yourself, like you are standing on your toes.

- govinda

041909

spreading love!

One of my best buddies (since high school days) has bloomed into a very fine photographer. A very brave spirit, always wanting to try and pursue her passion - she shares to the world what she sees as something interesting. May they be very personal or the very subtle way of saying "not quite right but here it is".

Two months ago, she started with her Project 365 as a push to go reach for her new found love. As a result? Experimentations and eye-candy pictures. See for yourself.

After a quick afternoon chat, she shares me a new (well it's an old one really) photoshop trick! I can't believe I'm missing this! Thanks fyns for showing me how to do vintage looking photographs. It's the secret of the curves! I usually just go with Levels and Colour Balance and Hue and Saturation. Open a favourite photo, Cmd M (Curves) and adjust the RGB's... tada! There you have it! Here's my own splash of the vintage love...